Hmmmmmm.... *sigh*
Do beautiful things have to come to an end? Why??
Hmmmm... I arrived home... and kept thinking abt that... Indeed, one of my friends has put this in his orkut page... Why do beautiful things have to come to an end??
Do they???
Sometimes, yes... cause society imposes us some rules...
Sometimes, no... they die only if we allow them to die...
In both cases it hurts a lot... and in the most unexpected time, it comes back to our mind... *sigh*... in part, life is made of memories... don´t know if it´s good or not... but at least for me, it´s like that... some memories it´s better to forget... others, *sigh*... even if you want, you can´t...
Sometimes some decisions we take along the way cause that... the end of beautiful things... but we must have taken the decision... no way back, most of the times...
In my case, I take too long to take a decision... not to regret later... not to hurt people... but this is life... we hurt ourselves... we hurt dear people... and we continue to live...
Is there anything more painful than life?? Is there anything more limiting than society?? Is there anything more struggling than memories??
BAHUT *SIGH*... I am boring today... feel like leaving everything behind... and start again... but I can´t... not even you... nobody... some chapters have already been written... and no way to erase them... we might try to be happy with what we have now... with what we have built till now... and again... this is life... I don´t know the purpose of all this stuff...
It s**** !!! It hurts... makes us cry... and even so... here we are...
Valentine´s Day :D
As I see... ahem... this blog has not been shared... :((
Anyways.... I kept thinking abt what to do for V. Day... although today is 15th...
So... a song would be nice... I guess... *sigh*...
Original sin
Elton John
Oh, it's carnival night
And they're stringing the lights around you
Hanging paper angels
Painting little devils on the roof
Oh the furnace wind
Is a flickering of wings about your face
In a cloud of incense
Yea, it smells like Heaven in this place
I can't eat, can't sleep
Still I hunger for you when you look at me
That face, those eyes
All the sinful pleasures deep inside
Tell me how, you know now, the ways and means of getting in
Underneath my skin,
Oh you were always my original sin
And tell me why, I shudder inside, every time we begin
This dangerous game
Oh you were always my original sin
A dream will fly
The moment that you open up your eyes
A dream is just a riddle
Ghosts from every corner of your life
Up in the balcony
All the Romeo's are bleeding for your hand
Blowing theater kisses
Reciting lines they don't understand
I can't eat, can't sleep
Still I hunger for you when you look at me
That face, those eyes
All the sinful pleasures deep inside
Tell me how, you know now, the ways and means of getting in
Underneath my skin,
Oh you were always my original sin
And tell me why, I shudder inside, every time we begin
This dangerous game
Oh you were always my original sin
(Rennie)
Now, a flower for you, yaar.
TAGGED AGAIN!!! :P
The rules of the game:
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover - Innocent, Intelligent, Music, Family, Party sharty, Nature, Looks, Attitude.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they’ve been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there’s no need to post again.
You can check Anujie´s answers in his blog: http://dreamzncreams@blogspot.com
Btw... really nice answers!!
OMG.... hmmmmmmmm...... *sigh*.....
Tough to answer this.... I think that I am a bit lost here...
Gender: *sigh* A MAN!!
1. Innocent: in his thoughts and actions... in the way he looks at me...
2. Intelligent: I see intelligence from a big perspective... not only, for example, a guy who is good in Maths or is able to speak many languages... I don´t know how to explain this... *sigh*...
There should be also mutual understanding...
3. Music: This is not such an important thing... I like many kinds of songs and he also might have his preferences... I respect his options and he respects my options... but both should like romantic songs :P
4. Family: Should be in the first place. I want a family man :P
5. Party sharty: What the h*** is sharty?!?!?!?! hahahahahahahaha!!! omg... :P It won´t work if he prefers going out with friends every night than being with me or going out with me.
6. Nature: Soft. Gentle. Kind.
7. Looks: hhmmmmm...... omg... I don´t know... he should be clean and wear clean clothes and shoes... hmmmm... *sigh*.... don´t know... and plz... don´t need to shave every day... :P And plz, again... don´t try to impress me... I get impressed with more subtle things than appearance...
8. Attitude: This is a bit like nature...
He should be himself. Just like that.
But I would like him to be gentle, soft, friendly, honest, sincere, worried abt me... also a positive attitude towards life... I need a guy who gives me security (I am not talking abt money), confidence...
No lies or omissions!!!
AUR SUNAO - hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!
I´ve learnt those two words a long time ago... *sigh*... the dude has said that... :P indeed, not just once... in this time, yaar was working in Delhi... we had nothing to do... and spent hours talking and joking... hahahahahahahaha... remember that, dear?
You got angry cause I did not know how to follow the game... :P
You say that - aur sunao - when, in a conversation, there´s nothing else to be said... hahahahahahahahahahaha....
But that´s the reason for the weather... when there´s nothing more to be said... talk abt the weather.... :P
Hmmmmmmmmm....... how boring!!! The weather is not an interesting topic at all... *sigh*... but maybe it can lead to other nice stuff...
But I may say something abt the aur sunao stuff.... although I hate it, I love it... and every time a person says that to me (even in those English versions) - thanks God it´s not happening very often - I feel like dying.... hahahahahahahahahahaha....
It sounds like: "Do you have any other thing to say? Cause the conversation has reached its end... and if you don´t find an interesting subject right now, I´ll leave - and maybe leave you speaking alone - and goodbye..." hahahahahahahahaha!!! Why am I laughing that much?? hmmmm... *sigh*
OMG.... how pathetic... the world is full of interesting stuff... can´t we find an interesting thing to say??
And it is not good - also - when you change the words "aur sunao" for something like... "and then", "so"... it gives me the crips!!!!!! gggggrrrrrrr....... it sounds like the old and good "aur sunao"... *sigh*....
Whatever...
anuj :: yups i do remember evrythng . All those talks & evrythng. lolz i knw u were really bad at those games .. and u always spoiled them .. and then i had to come up wid a new thght but it nevr worked :D .
newayz .. as far as this word is concerned .. AUR SUNAO .. lolz it doesnt alwayz indicate tht the talk is abt to end ... it also shows tht the individual sayin this is more interested in ur babbles & thus wants to knw more abt whts happenin wid u .. and thts why he says AUR SUNAO .. cause if he says .. WHTS NEW ?? or WHTS HAPPENIN ?? evryone says NOTHIN .. lolz .. theres lots happenin in evryones life .. i can bet on tht .. but its jst tht one is confused whether this wud suite to others interest or not .. and thus he/she ends up sayin NOTHIN !!
moreover people here love to say AUR SUNAO .. or to be very precise AUR SUNA !! cause this statement reflects closeness. U consider the person close to u & tht is why u ask him/her in a very casual fashion as to whts hapennin wid him/her .. cause ur quite interested in him/her & his/her life .. cause in some or the other way it also effcts ur life . ANd u keep on asking this question cause u want to knw more & more abt tht person ..
and its a better word then any formal english stuff .
U knw wht rennie ... we INDIANS have got our own style & statement .. people might consider us as jst some poor country .. or may be jst another growin economy .. but people here r more than jst this .... people here live up to each other ....
THey dont jst live their lifes .. they live & share it wid others as well. THe realtions tht they r born wid in terms of MOm, dad, bro ,sis & other relatives .. they love them all & care for them through out there life .. and they cherish the friends tht they make . Exceptions r alwayz there . so we do have bad [rather very bad ] people out here as well .. but thts the way nature works .. it maintains a balance . and dont take as sometin tht i m bosstin myself over .. cause now evn ur a part of it .
U might not be born here .. u might not be present her physically .. but u belong to here only .. evn if u dont ever come to india . Ur an indian by heart . and now ur the same as all other indians r . u will also cherish ur life & ur relations now . ANd i knw u cherish ur frndz already . As one of ur frnd [ RAM ] said tht u were wrongly placed in brazil .. u belng here . so jst be happy .. see hapiness is not a thing tht depends on the place ur in .. its all thts inside .. and if u feel tht ur in india .. ur an indian .. the place hardly matters . Heart is not bound by geography dear .. it reaches place where no one can fly or dive . so let ur heart be filled wid hapiness . jst keep smiling !!
so AUR SUNA !!
3rd post of the day - A PRAYER.
Hmmmmmm.... I am so emotional today.... :P
Oh, Lord, oh Energy of The Lord,
Please, engage me in your service.
Thank you, my Lord for everything that you gave me this year and everything that you give me every single day of my life.
I beg your pardon for each and every wrong action that I took. Show me the right way.
Forgive me for those moments of sadness, anger, disbelief and loneliness. I´ve been weak.
Teach me how to deal with my weaknesses and how to suppress part of my ego.
Teach me how to be a better person.
Keep blessing all my family and beloved friends. And also those who don´t like me or whom I don´t like.
You know, my Lord, that I don´t like to ask things for me. I know I have enough and I am blessed. But You know what´s on my heart. So, I wish you to give me this thing. I´ve been waiting patiently, Lord.
Thank you for everything.
2005 - A RETROSPECT
Hmmmmmmmmm....... *sigh*.......
Fine... alone here... the computer in front of me... almost 2006... a pizza in the oven..... well... well... well....
Let´s talk abt 2005, yaar??
I may say that this year has been totally different from any other year... totally new experiences and feelings...
Some points:
1. I finished my graduation project in the beginning of the year... finally!!! After postponing it for such a long time... got a good grade... I got relived and happy.
2. I met really good friends. Really good Indian dudes that I love.
3. I´ve learnt that things are not the way we see. Sometimes we create an image, an illusion and keep them in mind... being blind abt the reality... really bad thing to do, cause when we have to face the truth it really aches.
4. After 7 years of wishes, I got my car. Finally!!
5. I am still taking a PG course. That´s good. And I also met good buddies there.
6. I´ve closed my account in the bank.... ooooohhhhhhhhhh....... How I got relieved!!!!!!!! Thanks!!!!
7. I´ve found mera pyar... far away... but I´ve found and will fight for it.
8. I realized that I am 26 years old. And time passes quickly... *sigh*...
9. I think I´ve been a bit better person this year... more patient... but still have to improve in many aspects...
10. I´ve learnt that beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
11. I´ve passed the exam and now I am a real lawyer!!! Thanks God. I trusted Him all the time.
12. My faith has increased immensely... I trust Him blindly... although I have my moments of loneliness and lack of hope.
13. He knows how I had some desperate moments this year... but I had too many blessings. He is always with me and dry my tears...
13. I got a few disappointments... but really intense ones... *sigh*... and, as usual, He is helping me.
That´s it for now...
New Year
It´s more than 12:00 am in India now...
I am chatting with Vishie... he is alone there... and seems to be drunk... *sigh*...
Hmmmm..... *sigh*..... I hate New Year´s eve..... and I am sad!!!!!!!!! And bored!!!!!!!!
Anyway...
I am going to translate a poem... my version, of course...
"New Year
Midnight.
End of a year and beginning of other.
I look at the sky: no sign.
I look at the sky: the abyss wins the look.
The same astonishing silence of the universe.
Like an ectoplasm above my head.
Nothing there indicates that a new year begins.
And it does not begin even in the sky
nor in the ground of the earth.
It begins with the hope of a better life
that among the stars is not heard
cannot be seen nor exist.
This is a men´s thing:
this star-like animal that dream (and fight)."
MOUNTAINS
REMEMBER THIS, YAAR??
I CAME ACROSS IT RIGHT NOW...
"Often your tasks will be many,
And more than you think you can do.
Often the road will be rugged,
And the hills insurmountable, too.
But always remember, the hills ahead
Are never as steep as they seem,
And with faith in your heart, start upward
And climb till you reach your dream.
For nothing in life that is worthy,
Is ever too hard to achieve,
If you have the courage to try it,
And you have the faith to believe.
For faith is a force that is greater,
Than knowledge or power or skill,
And many defeats turn to triumphs,
If you trust in God's wisdom and will.
For faith is a mover of mountains,
There's nothing that God cannot do,
So start out today with faith in your heart,
And climb till your dream comes true."
a prayer
hey i m reading this book named " The Power Of Your Subconscious Mind " .... its a nice book .. the power of subconscious mind .. the way u think abt urselves governs ur acts & the environment around u ... so if u feel bad & if ur sad .. u will be sad .. and if u think to be happy & confident .. u will be happy. So jst think positive.
It also says abt the power of Prayer. So never give up on to faith & prayer.
I jst wrote something ....
Dear God bestow upon me the power to deal love
Give my heart the intelligence to understand love
Give my senses the flavour to taste love
Give my mind the thought to tickle love !!
Dear God bestow upon me the power to keep love
Give my ego the warning not to fake love
Give my hatred the fear not to scare love
Give my conscious the alarm not to seduce love !!
Dear Lord bestow upon me the power of pure love
Let love entice me, and make me entice love
Let love intrigue me, and let me intrigue love
Let love cry me, But make me rejoice love !!
Oh dear god show me the way
Take thy to love !!
so i pray tht God give all of us the strongest of will, the best of moods, the longlasting smiles .. and may we keep moving ahead to realise our dreams & desires.
now wud u write something plzzz rennie ?? RENNIE:
Well... the old and good love topic... :P
It reminds me of a poem written by Luiz Vaz de Camões - a Portuguese writer... I´ve tried to find the English translation... but... *sigh*... could not find... I would not dare to translate it from Portuguese to English, cause it´s so subtle, so delicate... that I am afraid to spoil it... but... at least, it´ll be my version... hhmmmmm........
"Love is a fire that burns without being seen;
It´s a wound that aches without being felt;
It´s an unhappy happiness;
It´s a pain that struggles without aching.
It´s a not wanting more than wanting;
It´s a lonely walking amidst people;
It´s never feeling happy of happiness;
It´s a feeling of winning in losing.
It´s a wish to be tied by will;
It´s to serve the one who wins; the winner;
It´s to be faithful with the one who kills us;
But how can love cause friendship in humans´ hearts
if the same Love is so opposite to itself?"
Well... my prayer will come soon!!!
HERE IT GOES:
I always begin my prayers with this 1st phrase:
"Oh, Lord, Oh Energy of The Lord, please, engage me(us, in this case) in your service!
My Lord,
Give us wisdom and maturity to recognize each other.
Let our love be a demonstration of our love for You.
Let us love each other without expecting to receive.
Don´t allow anger, fear or jealousy in our hearts.
Let respect, honesty and commitment lead us.
Let our love increase as time passes.
Don´t let time transform our love in a simple friendship.
Don´t let life make us bitter, but stronger.
Let us love each other as if there were no tomorrow.
Let us be good and kind with our kids.
And give us knowledge to teach them how to live in Your path."
Hmmmmm...... not as good as yours.... ;)
